I AM SO DEPRESSED YESTERDAY I HAD A NATIONAL SPELLING COMPETITION AND I DINDT WIN..I WON THE FOURTH PLACE?

HOW CAN I GET RECOVERED??? HOW CAN I GET HAPPY AGAIN?? I REALLY WANTED TO WIN THAT COMPETITON.. I STUDIED A LOT.. I WAS THE BEST IN MY CATEGORY.. BUT I MADE A MISTAKE SAYING A S AT THE END OF A VERB SO I LOSE IT! I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF.B